tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-38664855501780021582024-03-14T04:18:32.394-04:00Barnes Bunchmom2natnkatncjhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05749438583515797641noreply@blogger.comBlogger804125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-32463732539872352732024-02-02T23:00:00.012-05:002024-02-02T23:00:00.141-05:00Happy 13th Birthday Alyssa<p> Dear Alyssa,</p><p>I don't know how it happened, but somehow you are a teenager. It feels like just yesterday we were frantically driving to the hospital because you surprised us during an ice storm to come a day before you were supposed to. But you did it, you're a teenager.</p><p>You amaze me every single day with how smart you are. I don't know how you do it, maintaining those straight As in school. And you're so humble about your grades too. Keep up the hard work. You will do great things in this life.</p><p>I love how you want to get involved in everything. Even if it makes me a little crazy trying to juggle it all. You have so many talents. I hope you always keep trying new things.</p><p>My wishes for you this year are really the same as always. I wish for you to be happy and continue to pursue all of your dreams. I hope 13 is everything you dreamed it would be, but do me a favor and stop growing so fast. Enjoy these times and don't be in such a hurry to be all grown up. You'll have plenty of time for that.</p><p>Happy 13th birthday, Lissy. I hope you had a fun day and got everything you wanted. I love you always!</p><p>Love,</p><p>Mommy</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgs1UDJHsXvFmv1drkzSfuuXw5OTbR9mQQ25-iIk0bngjHbW15me7xcBFuXVcGqzoE_gxB20ZFd7XthoG1tQ7Cnkf53vKdj7EkXdm1FNIgHxtRGIt4H14wPhh0ezLA8B3BUJHkiQb2J71c9yJ_bQDABzVBKJhn9179yHtZpj4nPIKprTraFi7HhP9ZLC18Q/s4000/IMG_20240202_214749.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4000" data-original-width="3000" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgs1UDJHsXvFmv1drkzSfuuXw5OTbR9mQQ25-iIk0bngjHbW15me7xcBFuXVcGqzoE_gxB20ZFd7XthoG1tQ7Cnkf53vKdj7EkXdm1FNIgHxtRGIt4H14wPhh0ezLA8B3BUJHkiQb2J71c9yJ_bQDABzVBKJhn9179yHtZpj4nPIKprTraFi7HhP9ZLC18Q/w300-h400/IMG_20240202_214749.jpg" width="300" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p>Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-66642314031745664842023-11-01T08:00:00.004-04:002023-11-01T08:00:00.142-04:00Happy Sweet 16, Chris<p> Dear Chris,</p><p>Okay, I'm not gonna lie, that's still hard to type, even harder to actually say. Sorry, but 15 years of calling you CJ, it's just hard. So please continue cutting us some slack, won't you?</p><p>Looking back over these last 16 years I can't help but think where did the time go? When we made your time capsule 15 years ago I thought it's going to take forever before we get to see what's in here. Boy, was I wrong. I blinked and you were towering over me. It probably doesn't feel that way to you, probably feels like it took forever to get here. You made it though, we made it even.</p><p>Kiddo, I want so many wonderful things for you and your life. And trust me when I say this, all the things you want to do with your life are absolutely 100 percent possible. I know you might think I have to say that because I'm your mom, but all that means is I know you better than anyone else does. And that's exactly why I know you got this. You are so unbelievably smart. And it's okay that math and writing aren't really your thing, you don't have to be the best at those things. You do have to always try your best though, even in the areas that are difficult for you. And I think you are beginning to see that.</p><p>We had a rough year this past year, but I see that fire back in your eye, that urge to stay on track. And hey, I don't expect perfection, no one is perfect. I'm sure there are going to be mess ups along the way, but as long as you keep on correcting yourself you'll be just fine. </p><p>Your future is so bright. Whether you join the Army or the Navy or just go right into working in an automotive shop after high school or maybe something else entirely, who knows. I know you'll do great things. Keep working hard, and keep being kind and polite to others. Those doors are going to keep on opening for you.</p><p>Keep up the good work you're doing this year, Chris. I am so very proud of you. And the more responsible you are, the more responsibility you'll continue to earn. An after school job, your license, and your own car might not be too far off, so long as you do your best to always think before you do. Happy 16th birthday CJ, AKA Chris. I love you. Best early birthday present I ever got!</p><p>Love always, </p><p>Mom</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhxid9RBk5qH9QXyWnVConfBKV4tq-nsCqxIbXcjLr6b38HsORE2SGMTi_j_ZDSxFids4ddEEg_N9U2F4ARx_HMvsmsPWfYJXXaJpZKfbc3LQZLc_1im2-RmGFKdttaO4jmJqdxKjOX6e0VD1oRBZ685sSmGNix4H2LkB9-tq3Vtq_CnGtcH3XXVLdTWhns/s4000/IMG_20231031_161635.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4000" data-original-width="3000" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhxid9RBk5qH9QXyWnVConfBKV4tq-nsCqxIbXcjLr6b38HsORE2SGMTi_j_ZDSxFids4ddEEg_N9U2F4ARx_HMvsmsPWfYJXXaJpZKfbc3LQZLc_1im2-RmGFKdttaO4jmJqdxKjOX6e0VD1oRBZ685sSmGNix4H2LkB9-tq3Vtq_CnGtcH3XXVLdTWhns/w480-h640/IMG_20231031_161635.jpg" width="480" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p>Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-83914757472280705392023-04-11T02:10:00.004-04:002023-04-11T07:51:45.237-04:00Happy 21st Birthday Kaitlyn<p> Dear Kaitlyn,</p><p>Twenty-one wonderful years of watching you grow and learn. I don't think I could admire anyone more than I have admired you. With your great will and tenacity to do whatever you set your mind to with all of the roadblocks that get thrown in your way. The things you have experienced in your short life I truly believe would have made me crumble. But they have just made you stronger and more determined. I have always loved that so much about you.</p><p>This is a big birthday. And as usual you have lots of big plans for the year ahead. I am so looking forward to seeing how it all unfolds. Daddy and I will always be here for you. And just know, just because I might not be jumping up and down with excitement when you tell me one of your plans, or I tell you I don't think something is a good idea, that 100% does not mean I think you're stupid. I could never ever think that about you. Not after everything you have overcome in your life. I'm just a mom who worries and wants to protect you from ever getting hurt. Doesn't mean I am right though. You have to make your own choices in life and I know that, but it doesn't mean I'm going to stop playing devil's advocate for you if I think you should look at something from a different point of view.</p><p>I want you to go out there and live your life however you see fit. And Daddy and I will be proud of you no matter what. Because you are a good, kind, considerate and helpful person. We know only good things are meant to happen for you.</p><p>I miss the little girl you used to be, but absolutely love the beautiful, strong, confident young woman you have become. Happy birthday Katie Kiddles! I hope all of your dreams come true.</p><p>Love always,</p><p>Mom</p><p>P.S. Sorry there's no picture, but you know how you are with having your picture taken ;).<br /></p>Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-7545636026348403952023-02-02T23:00:00.005-05:002023-02-02T23:00:00.170-05:00Happy 12th Birthday Alyssa<p> Dear Alyssa,</p><p>The day has finally arrived. You are now officially 12. A much anticipated birthday for you as the last year as a preteen. You have been talking non stop for weeks now about today, well perhaps months. I do hope it ends up being everything you hoped for.</p><p>And speaking of hopes, looking ahead I also hope the last year in the preteen phase are everything you imagined and then some. I know things have been tough for you this last year with so many changes. Starting middle school, me going to work out of the house leaving you to come home a lot to no one home. I hope you can embrace this chance of freedom for you. But not too much. We have a lot of trust in you that you'll make good choices. I'm sure you won't disappoint.</p><p>Keep on smiling and don't be in such a hurry to grow up. Enjoy every minute of being 12. Because you'll only be 12 once. I love how social you are, always wanting to do things with your friends. I'm so glad you have found yourself such a nice friend group and that you all will have each others backs. Keep having fun and don't ever lose that spunk.</p><p>I love you so much and love that I get to call you my daughter. Happy 12th birthday, Lissy. </p><p>Love always,</p><p>Mommy</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhpFpWpZ0vmEsqhIcOmQrq7b6nozvbFNBMeaO_dZfFz0oVZ2Et4Iq2wgFgs2yrjfeJ2ojKesiWmab41cnw_vSHwq_wHBytAsgIh_2TCOT_jc7HzFvs96rbR5ZkpPIvIQjecVyeoz28LHOdZd3mVXfcYolN8Mm3dbrSGUVEvaK7Z_RblwUMJOynhfKghXA/s4000/IMG_20230201_193438.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4000" data-original-width="3000" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhpFpWpZ0vmEsqhIcOmQrq7b6nozvbFNBMeaO_dZfFz0oVZ2Et4Iq2wgFgs2yrjfeJ2ojKesiWmab41cnw_vSHwq_wHBytAsgIh_2TCOT_jc7HzFvs96rbR5ZkpPIvIQjecVyeoz28LHOdZd3mVXfcYolN8Mm3dbrSGUVEvaK7Z_RblwUMJOynhfKghXA/w480-h640/IMG_20230201_193438.jpg" width="480" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p>Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-52409933556792856882022-11-01T08:00:00.005-04:002022-11-01T08:02:44.421-04:00Happy 15th Birthday CJ<p> Dear CJ,</p><p>I can't believe I didn't tell you you're halfway to 30. Ha, I'm sure I've told you the story of Grandma telling me that on my 15th birthday. Always a great thing to hear first thing in the morning.</p><p>Anyways, what a ride these last 15 years have been. You sure have a knack for keeping us on our toes. And this year the thing that I was dreading finally happened, you decided to have people call you Chris instead of CJ. I knew this day was coming. I'm just so relieved that you don't want me to call you Chris, because honestly, this has been really hard when talking to your teachers. Most of them know we call you CJ, so sorry if you're still getting called that at school.</p><p>This has been such a big year for you. I can definitely tell you are very much trying to assert your independence. Do me a favor though, will you? Don't shut me and your father out. We love you very much and we can help guide you through all of this. Believe it or not we have navigated the teen years. And while we can't know exactly what you're going through we do have a fairly good idea, especially when it comes to the big stuff.</p><p>I am enjoying watching you navigate the whole exploratory process at your school and picking what you want your trade to be over the next 4 years. Can't wait to see in a month what you finally choose. Will you go a completely different path than you intended when you started this school like your sister did, or will you stick with what you've always thought you wanted? I have my suspicions on what you'll do. And I'm sure you will do it quietly with zero input accepted from anyone on the matter. Because that's just how you roll. If you do ever want to hear my thoughts on the matter though, you know I will happily share them with you.</p><p>Keep working hard and keep trying your best. You, my son, are such a bright and caring person. I miss the little boy you once were, but I love watching the man you are turning into. Happy 15th birthday, CJ! I know you are going to make the most out of every opportunity that comes your way. I love you!</p><p>Love always,</p><p>Mommy</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg05FA2dgBdzczA06BNOxTRDNwUZO38Q3zZBTsF9VCTCNdtu5NGPRcYoATac4OJexgyqjYES_bJzHTPX5blvQu8v6uXpJPCO5o9FHKq2gRmOeTXxIqX0NAWXWc70fC8JVQGHAxYCNWwHjNQrApEmee_grNXvouIip1jM180YsvBQnycyCHZLKEPnP0FOw/s4000/IMG_20221101_071235.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4000" data-original-width="3000" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg05FA2dgBdzczA06BNOxTRDNwUZO38Q3zZBTsF9VCTCNdtu5NGPRcYoATac4OJexgyqjYES_bJzHTPX5blvQu8v6uXpJPCO5o9FHKq2gRmOeTXxIqX0NAWXWc70fC8JVQGHAxYCNWwHjNQrApEmee_grNXvouIip1jM180YsvBQnycyCHZLKEPnP0FOw/w300-h400/IMG_20221101_071235.jpg" width="300" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p>Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-33524359053778346192022-04-11T02:10:00.005-04:002022-04-11T02:10:00.192-04:00Happy 20th Birthday, Kaitlyn<p> Dear Kaitlyn,</p><p>Happy 20th birthday! You're getting so old; or so you keep telling us. I know you still are toiling over what to do with your life, but try not to stress too much. You'll figure out what's right for you. But always make sure whatever you do everyone around you truly sees and appreciates your value. </p><p>I am looking forward to what adventures you will be getting yourself into this year. I know you have a lot of big plans, so I hope everything works out the way you want it to. Keep working hard, but finding ways to have a good time.</p><p>Thank you for all the help you offer with your siblings and around the house. We all really appreciate you so much, even if we don't always say it.</p><p>I hope you have a great 20th birthday. Congratulations on making it through your teen years. Happy birthday Katie Kiddles, I hope you have so much fun today.</p><p>Love always,</p><p>Mom</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj3f_z6QB-HPUvTI6r04n5QxzNFssAa8cpgx_LRKV3GdzTzEgjUdppDKZZkJ30ktOptMpKvgclZGbmvexd-Ghi-8hetK-2PE07IB-7G_aIvR76Ob_eDVzbbEfnSYyVIrcIhkhsfUWIsgi3wBJE2eMy1-7wruBP33JG18AvLJs3m1r3JwbFsBspEVA40-g/s960/43603.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="720" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj3f_z6QB-HPUvTI6r04n5QxzNFssAa8cpgx_LRKV3GdzTzEgjUdppDKZZkJ30ktOptMpKvgclZGbmvexd-Ghi-8hetK-2PE07IB-7G_aIvR76Ob_eDVzbbEfnSYyVIrcIhkhsfUWIsgi3wBJE2eMy1-7wruBP33JG18AvLJs3m1r3JwbFsBspEVA40-g/w300-h400/43603.jpeg" width="300" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p>Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-73915867641762168822022-02-02T23:00:00.009-05:002022-02-03T07:15:01.306-05:00Happy 11th Birthday Alyssa<p> Alyssa,</p><p> Double ones on 2/2/22, what a fun birthday you have, in so many ways. I hope you had tons of fun today. You sure are loved, that is very obvious. I hope you know that and felt that today and every day. </p><p>So fun one, what do you think of 11? I have some hopes for you as you go through this next year. I hope you keep being adventurous and trying new things. I hope you get to spend time with friends and family more this year after the last two years of mostly being stuck at home. I hope you get to have a fun and memorable end to your time in elementary school this year. I hope you can start middle school in the fall in a more normal way than school has been for you over the last few years. I hope you keep finding ways to make your own fun.</p><p>I am so glad I have gotten to be your mother for these last 11 years. I'm looking forward to what the next 11 years and beyond of your life are going to bring for you and us. I see so many bright things for your future. You are going to do great things.</p><p>Happy 11th birthday Lissy. We love you.</p><p>Love always,</p><p>Mommy</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEicLcGtUx6jFMFRja0-ThoHhtcQ5WpOhp9geDOhW9lXd4xgcvIByjfS6LFMkJtkQrfBu1fyaJHC0VOwmgNdyPk_CP3_tCWniUMUw-omwk0fhG8xUZIeSmDaO8aAcRjyxJA04ixB9u1VgpGPcbLs3WxxyUsj2--ahhd9iiYauGg9l5BTg6JaqQhZee39jw=s960" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="720" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEicLcGtUx6jFMFRja0-ThoHhtcQ5WpOhp9geDOhW9lXd4xgcvIByjfS6LFMkJtkQrfBu1fyaJHC0VOwmgNdyPk_CP3_tCWniUMUw-omwk0fhG8xUZIeSmDaO8aAcRjyxJA04ixB9u1VgpGPcbLs3WxxyUsj2--ahhd9iiYauGg9l5BTg6JaqQhZee39jw=w480-h640" width="480" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p>Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-84778743092119431072021-11-01T08:00:00.039-04:002021-11-01T08:10:14.590-04:00Happy 14th Birthday CJ<p> Dear CJ,</p><p>Happy Birthday Mr. Awesome. For the last 14 years you have been bringing so much joy and happiness to our lives. Watching you grow has been truly bittersweet because while I want to spend as much time as possible with you I also love seeing you overcome every obstacle.</p><p>People tell me all the time what a great kid you are. And it's so true. You are polite, you are funny, and you are a hard worker. Such great qualities which will take you so far in life.</p><p>I am so proud of what you are accomplishing this year. I know I drive you crazy always reminding you how important it is to do well in school so you can make your dreams come true, and you have truly stepped up to that challenge this year. I don't know why I was worried you wouldn't do it. Keep up the hard work kiddo, I promise you it will take you far in life. </p><p>The world needs more people like you in it. I'm just so happy I get to be along for the ride. I hope 14 is a great year for you. The best is yet to come in life, kiddo. Remember, don't have a good day, have a GREAT day! I love you always and forever. Happy birthday, CJ.</p><p>Love always,</p><p>Mommy</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiSIUtjUv98REbHWr7VN11czSn841Gt4Kz0NwHpBiBch-C_yCka-Tyyirc5H3ny34PCrvhvTp9t5VN0E_71wM9hXip3b0vQp7IqAI2hAqFOr38ab4r5IDffEuNU0CbylHp32gKU568uNeSx/s643/IMG_20211031_174244.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="643" data-original-width="482" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiSIUtjUv98REbHWr7VN11czSn841Gt4Kz0NwHpBiBch-C_yCka-Tyyirc5H3ny34PCrvhvTp9t5VN0E_71wM9hXip3b0vQp7IqAI2hAqFOr38ab4r5IDffEuNU0CbylHp32gKU568uNeSx/s16000/IMG_20211031_174244.jpg" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p>Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-83905850004265467232021-04-11T02:10:00.010-04:002021-04-11T02:10:00.243-04:00Happy 19th Birthday Kaitlyn<p> Dear Kaitlyn,</p><p>What a year it's been. Not exactly how any of us thought it would go, and everything you worked so hard for all seemed to end in a fizzle. But in true Kaitlyn fashion you plugged on probably a lot less phased by all you missed out on than I was.</p><p>I know you think 19 is no big deal. Nothing big happens this year, it's just another day, but I know you will make this a great year. Whether it's going back to school in the fall, or finding yourself the job you see yourself doing, you will figure it all out. Maybe not this year, but everything you challenge yourself into doing always leads you to a new adventure and something new you find out about yourself. Don't think you have to figure it all out at once though. Now is the time to try new things and explore all of your interests.</p><p>I am truly looking forward to you finding your path. And always know your father and I will always be here with you every step of the way cheering you on and offering advice whether you want that advice or not. </p><p>Happy 19th birthday Katie Kiddles. I hope you have a lot of fun today and a great year ahead. I love you!</p><p>Love always,</p><p>Mommy</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEid0IDupa0LLSBQ0IGQwVq9-tZF7RqrZo5CShU3ICpBLehSgMwdbp5qzOFRhfL3TSJqIgAeK039aVBVpVSkQIEQGh-DgyzjFMq4Vf_XTpk3vnAQ35tMZEmCHbjV1AF9bJrCyb5af3guncj8/s960/104225457_10157287299792653_8722163200356007633_n.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="720" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEid0IDupa0LLSBQ0IGQwVq9-tZF7RqrZo5CShU3ICpBLehSgMwdbp5qzOFRhfL3TSJqIgAeK039aVBVpVSkQIEQGh-DgyzjFMq4Vf_XTpk3vnAQ35tMZEmCHbjV1AF9bJrCyb5af3guncj8/w480-h640/104225457_10157287299792653_8722163200356007633_n.jpg" width="480" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p>Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-41205503828822784782021-02-02T23:00:00.012-05:002021-02-02T23:00:05.436-05:00Happy 10th Birthday Lissy<p> Dear Alyssa,</p><p>Finally, the much anticipated day has arrived. I hope it hasn't been too disappointing what with COVID raging on and a near blizzard putting a monkey wrench in everything for you. I cannot believe that you are 10 years old. It truly feels like just yesterday I was sitting on the couch after eating dinner when you said nope, I'm going to change all of your plans and make you scramble. You have been full of surprises literally since the day you were born.</p><p>You know, you round out our family in the most perfect of ways. I know you wish you could be a big sister, but you're just going to have to settle for someday, hopefully far down the road, being someone's awesome aunt. You complete this family, no one could ever follow your act. So sorry kiddo, you're stuck being the youngest, but rest assured, you are awesome at it.</p><p>The past year has been anything but typical. There has been a whole lot of shifting of plans and even some losses along the way, but you sure have shown how very strong and resilient you are. Switching to distance learning, you did so without complaint and even have done pretty good with it. I hope life can start to get back to normal and you can start getting to hang out with your friends in person and not just on Zoom or on the phone. I know you miss your friends.</p><p>You are growing up so fast. Sometimes I wish I could make it stop, but at the same time I can't wait to see where life is going to take you. You have so many great and wonderful thoughts for how your future will play out. No matter what you do, I am sure you will be great at it and you certainly are not going to let anyone push you around. You are a girl to be reckoned with and it's because of that, that I have no doubt your greatness is going to shine in whatever you do.</p><p>Have a great birthday baby girl, and I hope your 10th year with us is absolutely the best one yet. Happy 10th birthday Alyssa. You complete us!</p><p>Love always,</p><p>Mommy</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjL7z_vLnvR5Rgu9-WC8tkDlCyFiq4dLg1NQdMM7P90gmTS9liqN0-ySwu7h4gwA78nQHm2wk6GC3lKzL75ynXjLPfVPMkyurafXVvzpezjX_UjeKUznkP8TXKaw6wl2zieqamtU4V80ZzU/s4032/20210202_111414.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjL7z_vLnvR5Rgu9-WC8tkDlCyFiq4dLg1NQdMM7P90gmTS9liqN0-ySwu7h4gwA78nQHm2wk6GC3lKzL75ynXjLPfVPMkyurafXVvzpezjX_UjeKUznkP8TXKaw6wl2zieqamtU4V80ZzU/w300-h400/20210202_111414.jpg" width="300" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p>Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-70325028797195474892020-11-01T08:00:00.060-05:002020-11-01T09:20:31.021-05:00Happy 13th Birthday CJ<p> CJ,</p><p>It's finally here, you are now a teenager. As I do every year on your birthday, I have been reflecting on all the years that came before with you. Starting of course with our first moments together just staring in awe at your perfectly round little baseball head thinking how you were the greatest early birthday present I ever got. And you are just the gift that keeps on giving every year too. </p><p>You told me this year that you wanted to bake me a birthday cake, all by
yourself simply because I always bake you a cake for your birthday
every year. Just knowing that you want to do that for me is the best
birthday present you could give me. Because you know that I bake you a
cake because I care, and you want to do the same for me to show me that
you care. <br /></p><p>With each passing year I am more and more proud that I get to be your mom. Watching you come into your own has been great to see. Hearing from others that you have such a good head on your shoulders and don't just follow the group and start doing whatever the other kids do. It's a great quality to not be a follower. <br /></p><p>The last year has most definitely been trying in so many ways with having to figure out a different way to do school and not being able to see your friends. You haven't complained though. And I know there have been times you have wanted to give up, but you have continued on. Please keep working hard, even with all of this adversity. You have so much potential to reach your dreams, and I'm not just saying that because I'm your mom. </p><p>I hope today is everything you hoped it would be, and I hope your 13th year ends up being everything you thought it would be. Keep growing, keep learning, and keep having that big giant heart of yours. I love you so much and wish you the happiest 13th birthday a boy could ever have.</p><p>Love always,</p><p>Mommy</p><p> </p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5aG1WWo6Lx3YGNXc-eZNqm_OKxQDU5L_rKVB-hz6lyoUK-NE7_rceo-FMswP_bqKhyphenhyphenQn4wsmW5759MgVdw5u1jVJFiyT1PcuBNjaZ9mAyj01TJ4xNAzYdhTDSxtAJqqhpe-pjv7u_7D5_/s960/123318542_10157597391927653_8073304867491753713_n.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="720" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5aG1WWo6Lx3YGNXc-eZNqm_OKxQDU5L_rKVB-hz6lyoUK-NE7_rceo-FMswP_bqKhyphenhyphenQn4wsmW5759MgVdw5u1jVJFiyT1PcuBNjaZ9mAyj01TJ4xNAzYdhTDSxtAJqqhpe-pjv7u_7D5_/w300-h400/123318542_10157597391927653_8073304867491753713_n.jpg" width="300" /></a></div><br /> <br /><p></p><p> <br /></p>Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-25117678346389751032020-05-05T19:30:00.000-04:002020-05-05T19:36:56.641-04:00Class of 2020This blog has become mostly a place where the kids birthday letters reside. As the kids have gotten older I have found it harder to blog because a lot of the trials, tribulations, and triumphs haven't really seemed like they are mine and mine alone to share. So my Monica's Mom Musings blog has pretty much shut down long ago. And this is what I've had left as well as Facebook to share what's going on.<br />
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Today, I felt the need to say something that's a little more than a Facebook post. You see in the midst of this pandemic Kaitlyn has lost a lot. She was supposed to get her driver's license right as everything shut down in our state so that has been put on hold. She was supposed to have an 18th birthday bash to end all (okay, not really, but she had big plans for her 18th birthday that had to be put on hold). Senior prom, cancelled. Senior trip, cancelled. School is now officially as of today out for the rest of the year. And we still have so very much unanswered questions about what is going to happen for the class of 2020.<br />
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And no, Kaitlyn and her school are not the only class dealing with this. I feel for every single Senior out there. Kaitlyn's school put together this <a href="https://drive.google.com/file/d/1UpB06YryhHTR8Xtf3DrShEhnBDMTv6jI/view" target="_blank">15 minute video</a> about how much they miss everyone and plenty of shout outs to the class of 2020 in there. And I have been holding it together all this time, but watching that cheesy video the school and staff put together I couldn't hold back the tears anymore.<br />
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I got to thinking all the way back to even before I met Kaitlyn. When she was just a teeny tiny little embryo in my stomach in 2011 when 9/11 happened. I was pretty newly pregnant with Kaitlyn and it seemed like the world was ending then. I cried so hard wondering what am I doing bringing this baby into THIS world, this is awful. She was born seven months to the day of 9/11 and it was all still very fresh in everyone's mind, all over the news it kept saying, today is 7 months since 9/11.<br />
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Life marched on though, Kaitlyn made plans for her future, and dreamed big. This was supposed to be her year. She worked so hard for this. She isn't getting the chance to say goodbye to her friends, she had no idea the last time she saw them could very well have been the last time she actually saw them. She can't get her yearbook signed by her friends, she's not getting the prom that she insisted she didn't want to go to anyways, but now that she can't it's super disappointing. And there is going to be nothing like what she envisioned, if they even get some sort of graduation. Everyone says they will do something, but it's not going to be the same.<br />
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That video her school made hit me super hard though. They came into this world in a time of war, and now they are graduating in a national pandemic. It's not supposed to be like this. My heart breaks for the entire class of 2020 and it also breaks for the parents of the class of 2020. We too had big dreams for what this year would be like, the memories that would be made. And they did not include toilet paper shortages, school ending months earlier than it was supposed to and being switched to online, and the very real realization that graduation, at least in the traditional sense of the word was simply not going to happen. And of course I want everyone to be safe, I know this is the way it has to be, but I should be crying tears of joy right now not tears of sadness for what my daughter is missing out on.<br />
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I know she will rise above all of this, I know she will make of her life everything she has dreamed of it, and she will go forward head held high. But some day when she either has children of her own and/or nieces and nephews asking her about her senior year, I just wish this wasn't the story she would have for them. I mean I guess depending how she tells it, who knows it could end up sounding pretty cool. And it will be a graduating class all of us will be talking about for years to come I would imagine.<br />
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Class of 2020, it was supposed to be your year. We are all grieving with you. Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-6031707638257253892020-04-22T23:17:00.000-04:002020-04-22T23:17:04.174-04:00Happy 21st BirthdayDear Natalie,<br />
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Well, here it is, your 21st birthday. You are now a full fledged adult in the eyes of the law anyways. You however have been living your life as a full fledged adult for the last 10 months. This year is so surreal. We don't get to see each other and celebrate you in person because of the Coronavirus. You don't get to do everything you had hoped you would do today. But we will make the best out of it anyways and do everything we can to make this day special for you. And hey, when this is all over you get a whole other day of celebrating you. So that's something to look forward to.<br />
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You and I have been struggling the last few years as we figure out our relationship and where we go from here. This last year I feel like maybe we are making a turn. I don't know if you feel the same way. I just hope you remember that I will always be here for you no matter what. If you are struggling you can come to me and I will do everything in my power to help you out. No matter how old you get I will be here for you.<br />
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I hope this year brings you so much happiness and another step closer to figuring out your future. Just remember, what you always thought you wanted to do with your life just might lead you to a different path and that's okay. Now is the perfect time to explore all of your options. I know you will figure this all out, just remember you are not alone. So many people care about you and are willing to help you figure all of this out. Whatever you decide in the end, know that I am proud of you.<br />
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Happy 21st birthday Nat. I love you.<br />
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Love always,<br />
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Mommy<br />
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<br />Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-24346070804212388002020-04-11T02:10:00.000-04:002020-04-11T08:30:32.590-04:00Happy 18th Birthday KaitlynDear Kaitlyn,<br />
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It feels like just yesterday I was sitting at home playing Bejewled on the computer completely unaware that I was in labor with you. Your dad knew though, he watched me playing that computer game and timed how many times my face winced in an hour. Here we are though 18 years later and you are still full of surprises.<br />
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I'm sorry this day isn't going to be what you had hoped it would be because of this pandemic. Frankly, there have been a lot of unfair things about this whole thing that have happened to you and I completely understand how disappointed you are. I do hope your day ends up being better than you have been expecting. If nothing else, I guess you'll at least be getting a lesson that things don't always go as we plan them to, but that doesn't mean it has to be a bad thing. Okay, maybe I'm actually getting this lesson. Sometimes I feel like you take these kinds of things better than I do. You do deserve so much more though. We will make the best of it all though.<br />
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My wishes for you this year are that you begin the first steps in pursuing your dreams. Whatever those may be and however they may change. You are such a hard worker with such a big heart and so smart (yes, you are smart) that there isn't a doubt in my mind that you will do whatever it takes to do what you want to do in life. Always know that Daddy and I will always be here for you no matter how old you get and no matter what you need. We are your biggest cheerleaders now and forever and just want you to be happy.<br />
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Happy 18th birthday Katie Kiddles, I hope all your wishes come true.<br />
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Love always,<br />
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Mommy<br />
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<br />Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-11600372156096854002020-02-02T23:00:00.000-05:002020-02-02T23:00:01.077-05:00Happy 9th Birthday LissyDear Alyssa,<br />
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Well, I'm sorry today came after all. I know you said you didn't want it to come. I don't know why, maybe because you haven't been feeling well. I know it wasn't perfect, I hope you still had a good and memorable birthday and that all of your wishes you made today will come true.<br />
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But you are nine now, getting that much closer to 16 like you want to be. You know, I do hope you'll take time to enjoy 9 and all of the rest of the years from now until 16. There's a whole lot of fun each of those years can bring you too. Don't be in such a hurry to grow older. I know you feel like you're missing out because your brother and sisters get to do all this cool stuff before you, but they had to wait just as long as you did.<br />
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So here's what I hope for you this year. I hope it's filled with lots of fun and laughter. I hope you will find that love of reading soon. I hope you'll learn to write in cursive and love it as much as you thought you would. Most of all I hope you know how much you are loved by so many people. You are after all forever and always the fun one. Who wouldn't love you?<br />
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So happy 9th birthday Lissy. I love you.<br />
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Love always,<br />
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Mommy<br />
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<br />Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-16780084028119917042019-11-01T08:00:00.000-04:002019-11-01T08:00:07.091-04:00Happy 12th Birthday CJDear CJ,<br />
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Another year has passed. You are a year older, hopefully a year wiser, and a year taller. I feel like you've really blossomed this year. Starting to open up more with what's on your mind and what your opinion is about things. And I love seeing how your mind works too. What things are important to you and things that are not so much. Other people have been noticing it too and telling me what a cool kid you are.<br />
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You have such a big heart. You always watch out for those younger than you. I don't think I've ever had to tell you to do that either. If there are little ones around you step more lightly and take the time to help them and show them the way. That's probably why little kids always enjoy being around you so much.<br />
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This year you started middle school and you marched right into it like you've been there all your life. I on the other hand was a nervous wreck for you. But you have owned it. It never seemed to bother you when you found out that your best friend wasn't going to be in any of your classes, you went there and made new friends. Seemed like without hesitation too. If it was hard for you, you certainly never let on to me.<br />
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As we go through the next year I hope you continue to tackle things this way with this take charge attitude of yours. But always know Daddy and I will always be here for you whenever you need us if you are unsure or scared about something. It's okay to be scared, and it's okay to ask for help.<br />
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I hope you have a great 12th birthday, one that you will always remember and look back on fondly. Keep on being awesome. We love you. Happy 12th birthday, I'm so glad I get to be your mom!<br />
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Love always,<br />
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Mommy<br />
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<span id="goog_385076188"></span><span id="goog_385076189"></span><br />Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-86349862257032209522019-04-22T23:17:00.000-04:002019-04-22T23:17:08.518-04:00Happy 20th Birthday NatalieDear Natalie,<br />
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Well, it's finally here, the day you have been waiting for, to be able to officially say you are not a teenager. Funny how you always hated growing older and now you are trying to rush all this growing up all at once. Don't be in such a big hurry to be an "adult". If you think you are stressing now about how to pay for things, just wait until you do have all of those housing responsibilities and you don't know how you're going to pay for food. There's no need to rush this. It will all happen in time and hopefully when you're more financially ready to take it on, and then you'll be wishing you could go back to when things were simpler and you didn't have all these bills to worry about.<br />
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We always want what's best for you and want to keep you from having to struggle as much as we can. It's not that we don't want you to grow up, it's that we don't want you to jump into things you are not ready for yet.<br />
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Do not ever settle. You deserve to have the best of everything and the best from everyone. Someone who can accept you for who you are and all of you just as you come.<br />
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I will always be with you. I am the whisper in the leaves as you walk down the street, the smell of your favorite foods, the scent of life itself. I was your first love, your first friend, and even your first enemy. Nothing on this earth can separate us though. Not time, not space, and not even death.<br />
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I hope 20 is everything you thought it would be and all of your dreams come true. Happy birthday!<br />
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Love,<br />
Mommy<br />
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<br />Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-16749693648827103402019-04-11T02:10:00.000-04:002019-04-11T02:10:00.514-04:00Happy 17th Birthday KaitlynDear Kaitlyn,<br />
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Happy birthday! What a crazy rough emotional year it has been for you. In case you didn't know this I am super proud of how you have handled everything. You have been faced with some very difficult situations that many adults in your same circumstance wouldn't have handled with the amount of maturity and strength that you have. And that makes me so proud, and probably a lot relieved as your mom to know as you continue to take these steps towards independence that you are going to be just fine.<br />
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I do hope when you look back on 16 though that you can remember the good times more than the bad ones. While each moment (the good and the bad) will shape who you are, I do hope you have some fond memories of things that have happened this year.<br />
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Going forward continue showing your strength and maturity. Remember, you can do whatever you put your mind to and no one including some immature insecure little boys can stop you. You are going places kid. Just believe in yourself and the amazing talents and abilities you have. Tackle everything you come across with that wonderful kind, giving personality of yours and your beautiful smile. You will in the end always come out on top so long as you do that.<br />
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I hope 17 is a great year for you and you have infinitely more ups this year than you have downs. Reach for the stars Kiddles, I know you can do it!<br />
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Love always,<br />
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Mommy<br />
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<br />Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-40817770406930329292019-02-02T23:00:00.000-05:002019-02-02T23:00:05.042-05:00Happy 8th birthday to my baby girlDear Alyssa,<br />
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My little groundhog who's always so full of surprises from the moment you were born. It's hard to believe it has been eight years since you came along to complete our family. The perfect addition to our family. My wish for you this year is that you have so much fun and learn so many new and exciting things in school.<br />
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I hope you never lose your creative side. Keep on writing those books and drawing those amazing pictures you draw. I hope one day you will help all those sick dogs like you want to.<br />
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Wishing you a super happy 8th birthday. I hope you get everything you wanted today. We all love you so very much and hope this is the best birthday yet.<br />
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Happy 8th birthday my sweet little baby girl.<br />
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Love always,<br />
Mommy<br />
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Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-24879128437223559122018-12-06T00:35:00.000-05:002018-12-06T12:10:55.760-05:00Letter to my Angel Baby - A Decade LaterDear Celeste Alia,<br />
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It has been one decade, that is 10 years, 120 months, 3,650 days, 87,600 hours, 5,256,000 minutes, or 315,360,000 seconds since we met and said goodbye to you. Not a single year, month, day, hour, minute, or second of that time have you not been a part of. While I never got to hear your voice, or see all of your firsts, or even been able to hug and kiss you all that time you are so very much a part of every fiber of my being and who I am today. You were the wake up call I needed to stop taking everything I had for granted. To really embrace and hold on with all of my might to that which is most precious to me. Thank you sweet angel baby for making me who I am today.<br />
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And don't get me wrong, I still wish with every part of me that you were here with us instead. That I could have heard your first words, seen you take your first steps, sent you off to five first days of school. Told you a million times to stop bickering with your brother and sisters. I would do anything to have you here with us instead, but I know this is the way it had to be. <br />
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It's hard to look back at December 6, 2008. We really barely even had an opportunity to know you were coming and then had to come to terms with the fact that we now had to say our goodbyes. I hope you know and feel all of our love all this time you have been in heaven. Even your little sister Alyssa in her oh so inquisitive way loves you. She asks about you often.<br />
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I hope you and all the other angels are getting along great in heaven. Please give all of our love to all of our family who we have had to say goodbye to. If you are so inclined we'd love it if you would stop in sometime again soon to let us know you're around.<br />
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Love you and miss you sweet Angel. Happy birthday and merry Christmas.<br />
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Love,<br />
Mommy<br />
<br />Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-29063986689980427832018-11-01T08:00:00.000-04:002018-11-01T08:00:08.113-04:00Happy 11th Birthday, CJDear CJ,<br />
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Time flies when you're having fun. These last 11 years sure seem to have gone by quick. You have always been great at keeping us on our toes too. And what a year this has been, eh? I do hope you'll remember it to have been mostly good.<br />
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I so love our one on one time together, even though it doesn't happen often. You are really fun to talk to though. Super cool to hang out with, and if anyone tells you otherwise, well then they're just crazy and must not know what cool is. And you have to believe me, because I'm your mom and I know what I'm talking about.<br />
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So this year, your last year in elementary school, I really want you to enjoy this time. There are fun and exciting things coming up, but don't focus so much on what's to come and miss what's right in front of you. Some of my fondest memories of my childhood came when I was in 5th grade. So cherish these moments. Don't be in such a hurry to get older.<br />
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Always know Daddy and I will always be here for you no matter what. We will always love you. Even when you're rolling your eyes at us or talking back. And when you get so mad that nothing matters to you anymore, at least in that moment, I want you to take a deep breath and walk away and take a moment to gather yourself.<br />
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You are a smart boy with amazing insights. Don't let anyone ever tell you otherwise. Rock 11 buddy, this is going to be a great year for you.<br />
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Happy 11th birthday. I love you.<br />
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Love,<br />
Mommy<br />
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<br />Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-74021462554510134062018-04-22T23:17:00.000-04:002018-04-22T23:17:24.030-04:00Happy 19th Birthday NatalieDear Natalie,<br />
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This is a rough year for us, and probably the hardest birthday letter I have had to write to you to date. And probably not for the reasons you think. I love you so much and I hate the wedge that has come between us. Maybe it's all a part of growing up and spreading your wings. Probably mostly because I have a hard time letting go. I can't bear to see you hurt and yet it feels like I'm also the one that keeps causing you pain. Maybe someday you'll get where I'm coming from, I'm hoping sooner rather than later of course. I really just want you to be happy and a successful productive member of society. And as shocking as it may be I do know a thing or two. I know it's hard to step out of your comfort zone and just bite the bullet and go for it, but sometimes that's what you have to do to have all of those life experiences that you want.<br />
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We are so very much alike in so many ways, which is part of why we probably fight so very hard. The path that you are walking down is a very similar one to what I took. And while I would never change a thing about the choices I have made in life, I also don't want you to follow in my footsteps just because I wouldn't change anything about my life. You can have everything you want if you can find a nice even keel balance. And sometimes that might mean saying no to the person you want to disappoint the least right now. If he truly loves you, then he should understand and want to support you.<br />
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For the last 19 years now I have advocated for you to make sure that no one ever takes you for granted and that they will see what I know is inside of you. And guess what Kiddo, I'm not going to stop now just because you are an adult. Face it, you are stuck with me. No one will know you the way that I do. No one else knows the story of you the way that I do. And no one else will ever love you the way that I do. You are a piece of my heart walking outside of my body and I will fight fiercely to make sure that you are treated right. I do have room in my heart to open up to that special someone in your life, but you have got to give me a fair shake and not put us in uncomfortable positions where I feel like I, and therefore you (because you are a piece of my heart) are being disrespected.<br />
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While you are trying to figure out your place in life please don't lose yourself in the process. Remember the things that have always been important to you. It doesn't have to be one or the other, you can have it all. Sacrifices will have to be made, but never forget your values and where you come from. I was at this story from the very beginning, and I won't see it through to the end, but please let me be there with you until my end.<br />
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I love you. Happy 19th birthday Nat!<br />
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Love always,<br />
Mommy<br />
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<br />Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-13987900498805132852018-04-22T00:00:00.000-04:002018-04-22T00:28:44.039-04:00My Dearest CelesteI haven't written to you in a while, or really about you even. You would be 9 right about now. I'm not entirely sure what it is that made me want to write to you now. Of course today was your due date. While I do think of you daily, this is the day that you're definitely not far from my thoughts at all. Wonder what you would have been like, what you would have liked, what you would have disliked. Would you want to have participated in our girl day of manicures with your oldest sister and baby sister, or preferred to skip it like your older sister? Would you love to read and write, or work with your hands? What would your relationship be like with your siblings? I wonder how different things would have turned out if we hadn't lost you. I guess I've been doing a lot of reflection lately on things. What would have happened if we followed a different road or more to the point someone else had followed a different road. Perhaps that is why I felt the need to write to you now. All of those what could have beens.<br />
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We can't go back though, all we can do is go forward. While I will probably always wonder what could have been and who you could have been I will just have to go on. There was a reason I didn't get to be your mother here on earth, and someday in the hopefully very distant future we will meet again and perhaps some of my questions will be answered. I will continue to look for signs though that you are always with us, always in my heart, always on my mind, always watching over us. I miss you Angel Celeste Alia. I love you.<br />
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Love,<br />
MommyMonicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-90742974458500857482018-04-11T02:10:00.000-04:002018-04-11T07:51:04.076-04:00Happy Sweet 16 KaitlynDear Kaitlyn,<br />
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How is it that you are 16? I can't believe it. It has been a pleasure being your mother and watching you learn and grow. You have been an amazing advocate for yourself especially this year at school and really have kept yourself on the right track. I'm so proud and very relieved to know that you got this. And always know I will also always have your back. So if you're ever "<i>not getting your way</i>" (ha-ha) you know who to call on. I will take on anyone who's not treating you right or doing for you what you deserve.<br />
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I know things around here have been very crazy and tense lately. It's not your job though to fix things that have been happening at home lately. I appreciate and love you so much that you want to make things easier for me, but I know everything will work out just the way it's supposed to. I might get mad and yell and scream and maybe even complain about what's happening, but it's not something you need to be worried about. You just keep being you and working your butt off to get whatever you want.<br />
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The sky is the limit for you. I can't wait to see what the next two years of high school are going to bring for you and beyond. I have no doubt that whatever you want to happen you will make happen for yourself though and you'll do it with courage and conviction never losing who you are. Keep dreaming big and pushing hard. You keep breaking those glass ceilings and showing people that when you put your mind to something you will make it happen!<br />
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Happy sweet 16 Katie Kiddles. I hope it's everything you wanted.<br />
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Love,<br />
Mommy<br />
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<br />Monicas Mom Musingshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06138951937053872606noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3866485550178002158.post-65098576403089062922018-02-02T23:00:00.000-05:002018-02-03T08:27:20.294-05:00Alyssa's 7th BirthdayDear Alyssa,<br />
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Seven years sure goes by fast, probably because you're the fun one as you so hysterically like to tell us. And truth be told, it has been a fun ride with you up to this point. Not only are you funny, but your quick wit and amazing imagination keeps us on our toes. We never know what it is you're going to say. You are a shining star and you let everyone who meets you know it.<br />
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The sky is the limit for you my dear sweet daughter. Whatever you do I am sure you will be smiling and making others laugh. Never let anyone take that gift away from you. Just keep on being you, shine bright, and don't ever let anyone stifle your creativity and imagination.<br />
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Always know Daddy and I love you forever and always no matter what. We will never stop. Looking forward to what the next seven years and beyond is going to be like with you. Happy seventh birthday my beautiful girl, I hope it has been everything you imagined it could be.<br />
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Love always,<br />
Mommy<br />
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