Letter to CJ

November 1, 2008

My Dearest CJ,
Has it been one year already? It feels like just yesterday I had you in my belly anticipating your birth. I feel the same way I did one year ago today; nervous, excited, and maybe even a little bit scared. Scared of what’s to come next.

You came into my life early that November morning with such a flurry. You were screaming your perfect round little head off and I was crying my eyes out. Finally, a little boy! I didn’t get to hold you for long before they had to take you away from me which broke my heart. Once you were all snuggly warm though and I got to hold you again I never wanted to let you go.

Things haven’t been easy from the very beginning. I’m sure over the years I will share your birth story time and time again with you. We’ve had a lot of bumps in the road to get where we are today. Through everything this year there has always been a beautiful smile on your face. It’s a smile that melts my heart every time I see it. You are fast asleep right now, but even now I can see your bright shining face.

You have taught me so much this year. You have taught me to smile even when things aren’t going just right. You have taught me strength and courage. You have taught me perseverance. I can’t wait to see what else I am going to learn from you.

I like any mother want the world for you. I have my own dreams of what you will be and what you will become as you get older. But you need to follow your own dreams. Most of all what I want for you is that you are happy in your life. I want you to know that I will always always always love you and I will always be here for you. I will be there cheering you on when you hit your first home run and encouraging you to keep trying when you strike out. I will be there for you when you experience your first heartbreak. No matter what I will be there whenever you need me, even if you think you don’t need me.

You are and always will be my baby boy! You’re my little baseball head. My little Mr. Met. I love you and I always will. Thank you for being a part of my life and thank you for this wonderful year. I’m looking forward to many more birthday celebrations for you. Happy 1st Birthday my little man!

Love always,
Mommy